Me.

i dont really know how long it has been since we broke up. i kinda lost track through all the things that have happened since then. tomorrow is your birthday, i have a present for u, but its not something i can give u anymore. i sit at home everyday after school thinking about u; about how youve moved on and are happy with someone else while im sitting here still hung up on u. i dont let anyone know that tho, im afraid of what they will think, im afraid it will reach u. for u see, theres only one thing i really want right now, scratch that, theres two; i want u, and i also want u to be happy. it comes apparent each day that i cant have u, but each day i see that u really are happy now. youre done with all of our bullshit and youve found a guy who u actually enjoy being with. not a day goes by that i dont think about all the moments we shared, thinking about them makes me so happy but at the same time they make me want to cry. im no longer the kid i once to be, idk who i am anymore. i lost a part of me when i lost u and i dont think anyone knows that. everyone says that i deserve better but as far as i can see, there is no one better. u made me happy, u made me laugh, u made me the happiest guy in the world and now that youre gone, i dont know what to do. i dont even know how long all this will take, all that i know is that my feelings for u get stronger each day. i dont want u to see this. it wouldnt be fair to u but i had to get my feelings out, and maybe, just maybe, sometime in the future, youll come back to me and ill be able to have another shot.